I’ve become obsessed with HER, and she doesn’t even know it!

I’ve noticed her from a far, stood and admired her. Her beauty, the way she totally captivates others with her wit, charm, personality, and conversation. How she can make people laugh until their stomachs hurt, and they’re begging her to “please stop, because OMG, you are something else and and you’re gonna make me choke to death as I pee on myself, laughing at your CRAZY ass!! You seriously missed your calling to be a comedian”!

I’ve always loved her style of dress. She seems to pull off a classy look but with a sex appeal that is uniquely her own, she doesn’t see it, but she’s often compared to Phylicia Rashad, with good reason. I see the way she blushes when people tell her that, though she laughs it off and says “I guess”. She loves skirts and dresses, and heels. I think it’s because as a kid she watched a lot of classic movies with the ladies who were dainty, damsels in distress, always getting the guy in the end, as he’d run and profess his love with a kiss dipping the damsel, her perfect coif/updo staying in place, perfect fitting sweater or blouse, tucked neatly into a form fitted pencil skirt, black heels (we assume they were black, as the movies were all black and white…DAMN we are old). Though she’s curvy, she is never too revealing in her choice of attire, and everything fits in all the right places. Her hair, OH MY, that natural mane of hers. She’s always been blessed with thick hair, and now that she wears it curly, it is something to behold. Even when she went through a “phase” and cut it, it was still just as beautiful as her.

Her smile, when she smiles the world feels like a better place to those who are privy to it. I hate that she covers her mouth when she smiles big, or lets out a guttural laugh. She’s so insecure about her smile. But I’ve seen and heard so many people tell her that’s what they love most about her. Why doesn’t she see it?

This woman loves to dance, I’ve seen her dance to almost every genre of music there is, and she ENJOYS the beat. The movement, whether fast or slow, is evidence of the way she FEELS everything. She dances like no one is watching at every opportunity. Be it at home, in a grocery store, in a club, in church (ha, she claps to the beat of the band and choir, with pure JOY), with her grand kids, at work, in the car, on the train. She doesn’t care. She closes her eyes, let’s the music grab her soul, and 2 step it out wherever it feels good.

I love how she loves love. BOY does she love love. For no other reason than it feels good to be there, and to witness it in others. Something about it gives her a satisfaction that you can see all over her. When her friends find it, she’s happy, the times she thought she had it, she was happy, when she watches love stories on t.v, or read about it, she’s happy.

GOD SHE’S SO BEAUTIFUL TO ME…

But still, she never notices me. I love her so much. But she’s always so busy trying to make everyone else happy. Trying to please others. Entertaining people who could never see, take care of her, hold her, submit to her, understand her, LOVE her, the way I could.

So I wait, I have the Patience, I watch her, I’m always there to catch her if she falls.

One day she’ll notice me, and fall just as hard for me, as I have for HER!!! And we’ll live happily ever after, after all, she’s my soul mate.